This question came to me in a season when my faith was in deep crisis and barely intact. I had more questions than answers, and in my loneliness and life crisis, I felt like God had betrayed me.

Honestly, I was tired.

My relationships, both professionally and interpersonally, were challenging at best. I came to understand my lack of self-awareness which had me stuck in patterns of behavior, causing strain in my professional and interpersonal relationships. I was lonely and longing for intimacy that seemed to be just out of reach.

Back to the group setting and the question…

"When was the last time you received from God?"

After hearing this, I uncharacteristically decided to turn inward and get curious.

I immediately sensed, “Alicia, you do for God. But have you ever received?”

A memory from middle school, that I hadn’t thought about in years, came to mind, which I later understood as the moment I subconsciously decided it was not safe to trust or receive from God anything I didn’t understand.

I asked God, "What do you want me to know?" about this memory?

While being present to what was coming up, I heard a still small voice say, "I will only give you Myself, my Presence."

I immediately felt a release in the form of a sigh. The release that comes from deep inner knowing.

In that moment, I received Truth about my younger self, and it brought me inner healing.

This spiritual experience began my online somatic healing journey.